The birth of Turning Our Hearts Back to God!

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I’d been dating this guy whom I thought was the one for a few weeks. I just knew, he had to be the one, I was celibate and so was he. We both loved God, but I soon realized God hadn’t placed us together. From the outside looking in, he fit the credentials of what a kingdom man looked like. But every time I prayed about the relationship, the Lord led me to Song of Songs 2:7, 

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“Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you by the gazelles and by the does of the field: Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires.” 

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At the time, I didn’t understand why the Lord kept taking me to that scripture. But as I begin to pray more fervently the Lord opened my spiritual eyes to see things, I hadn’t seen before. I was not his rib; I wasn’t made for him. Shortly after this revelation, the Lord led me to end the relationship. I must admit, I wasn’t immediate in my response. In the past, I’d experienced many toxic relationships. If I’m being honest, I wanted this relationship to work despite my convictions.

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One morning while in prayer, I heard the voice of the Lord clearly as he led me to 2 Kings 10, I read about how Jehu slewed all that remained in the house of Ahab. Jehu had done very well in destroying the worship of Baal in Israel.

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"However, he did not turn away from the sins of Jeroboam son of Nebat, which he had caused Israel to commit the worship of the golden calves at Bethel and Dan." (2 Kings 10:28-29, NIV) 

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After reading this passage of scripture, I ask the Lord why he had led me to read about Jehu and the house of Israel. The Lord said, “partial obedience is disobedience, I have showed you that this man is not the one I have chosen for you.” Despite my celibacy and fervent prayer, I had not been completely obedient in letting go of the relationship. At that moment, I knew what I had to do. I immediately called and ended the relationship. 

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As the tears begin to run down my face, I asked, “Papa, why have I been through so much hell in relationships?” I didn’t understand the cycle of endless pain and wondered would it ever be my time to have a loving relationship. 

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Then, I heard the Lord say clearly, “Turning Our Hearts Back to God, I want you to write a book about self-love, purpose and purposeful relationships. A book that talks about the dangers of awakening love before its time. Your pain wasn’t in vain, I will use what the devil meant for evil, for my glory.” I remember saying to Papa, “you want me telling all my business?” He responded,

 

“how can you help someone, if you aren’t honest?” 

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So, here we are, a candid journey of experiences filled with painful purpose. Turning Our Hearts Back to God, was birthed through pain, but it has given me a new understanding of Romans 8:28,

 

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose."

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I pray this book helps you to fall in love with the woman God created you to be, that you begin to see yourself the way God sees you and not as the world sees you. 

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Sending peace, blessings and lots of love!!